I want to better.

Ive decided that 2014 is gonna be the year I will become a better artist all around. I want to up my game. photography, art graphic design.. I want to bring it all up.

So this is a post I started like.. weeks ago when I took a trip up to the city with my best friend to celebrate getting My A.A.

So I guess I should inform you that I'm the first person in my ENTIRE family (step/half sibling included) to graduate from any form of college, even getting an A.A is a big deal. Unfortunately or maybe fortunately.. Im not very close to my extended family. It's not a big deal, and I prefer it this way... much less drama. Anyways, it ended up being my sisters and nephews, the hubby, and my mother in law and her sister. I was really sad my mom missed it, i forget to get her the details on time and she had already planned a trip to Mexico and I didn't know... I was really bummed but the rest of my family did make it out and that what mattered.


I celebrated graduating like a total dork.  It was crazy hot that morning and for some reason the Arts department was the last to do the walk.. so by the time we walked we were dying.. it was really cute hearing my family cheering for me and it made it all worth it.

Anyways, one of my best friends missed it and offered to take me out to lunch..so we went up to the city to have lunch, and walk around. I've been craving a place called Pica Pica for like months now, ever since we found it by accident the night we went to go see Blood Red Shoes...I've had crazy foodie dreams about the place. The place makes Venezuelan food that is crazy good.

Left: The mural outside is super flipping cute!!!
Right: The pulled pork pabellon is a must must try.. it's mouth watering.
(Photos from Elisa's Phone)

Life stuff: sharing myself

How much of your life do you share with the public? Like, for realsies, we have so many options these days and even more options on how to synchronize everything. lately Im feeling like its all too much... This is kind of some weird off-branch from my last post.

I used to be extremely public online. As I get older I feel like I  share less and less of myself online. At times times it's probably a good thing, there some life stuff that just doesn't need to be shared with everyone, but sometimes I feel like asking the public might help me make a better choice. 

Documenting every waking moment gets boring for me. I highly doubt that people care about every meal I have or every silly though that pops in my head... but thats what Instagram and Twitter are for anyways right?  In all honestly I don't find my life very exciting these days. With being in school everyday (included saturdays.. yeah I know..) and being married, my life has quieted down a lot. 

Which brings me to my subject; being married. If I blog about and event I went to or something I did.... Im not just sharing my experience, I'm also sharing his. We get so little time together these days to do anything real that doesn't involve school, so when we do I want to keep it for myself. Which is a really valid feeling I think. 

Whats the point off all of this? Well, to be honest I don't know.  I know I miss blogging. I love reading other peoples blogs, and I miss the interaction that comes with it. I used to have friends all over the world and miss that. 

I'm finishing up my post about going to the city a few months ago.. and I have a new one from this weekend. Lots of pictures involved. Yey!

Blogging... and my problems with it.

  I suck at keeping up blogs. I state that every time I write a new post I realized.

        I really want to be able to keep one up without later going back and editing or just flat out deleting the post because I don't feel I'm properly expressing what I wanted too. Or I get into it for a bit and then I end up feeling like I've outgrown them... or  I've outgrown the person I was when I first created them. The longest journal/blog I've ever kept it my old livejournal blog, Ive officially had it for 10 years, I just went back and read through some of it.. and lets be brutally honest... I will never be poet and I should probably avoid writing it. Its hysterically bad. I've had this thing since 09.. and Im pretty sure Ive posted less than a months worth... pretty pathetic.

Anyways, back to the point. I want this to have a purpose aside from just keeping myself entertained. Recently my husband has taken up blogging as part of a school project. Not only has he been able to write more than a post in a week, he's also amazingly eloquent in his posts. I wish I possessed his ability to write to something meaningful. We approach blogging on very different levels, and subject matter is day and night obviously.... but at least his effort shows..

I have 3 or 4 different blogs post in queue right now.. some from June when I took a trip to the city after my graduation.. I did a really rad picture walk and took some cute pictures.. but for some reason I just haven't been able to properly finish it.  I feel like Im well past the expiration date on those post now.

I have another post about fashion and where I think its gonna be heading.. and even though i totally called it.. I don't feel like its something I can share anymore since obviously its long gone and happened.

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I started a new job on tuesday. Ive decided that since my job is so awesome that I can actually spend time online doing whatever I want.. Im going to attempt to use that time for blogging and possibly making THIS a "thing".

Sooo here goes nothing.

ladidahs

Wierd post with absolutely no substance.. I just needed it in order to create a link.

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Shooting Shooting Shooting..

Tomorrow Im going to be shooting at The Annual Strangers Car Show, pretty excited!

Ive got a returning client and a new client that I actually met at a bus stop in long beach last year!! Crazy right? and the other two are family members.

Im pretty excited about shooting some new faces!! and the returning client is so fucking cute!! seriously. Im kinda hoping people there will be interested and possibly wanna try and book a shoot.. long shot I know .. but a girl can dream.

All the money from this shoot is going towards purchasing a third light.

Im trying to decide between the Alien bees 1600 or the Alien bees ring flash?

the 1600 has more power...

but the ringflash... makes pretty light.. sooo I dont know..

Working

Working by wenzdai featuring chanel lipstick

lazy bum

lazy bum by wenzdai featuring printed jeans

Purple pirates

Purple pirates by wenzdai featuring a long cardigan

tea date

tea date by wenzdai featuring cross charms

Yesterday I finally got the urge to use polyvore.. Experimenting with colors... Ive been wearing black and grey forever..and I will probably continue to wear black and grey.... but I cannot deny my weird love for the color mint. 

Summer Goal.

Ok so I obviously am sucking at this. Im pretty sure one of my new years resolutions was to update this more.. that did not happen.

For what its worth I was super dedicated to to getting done with school, and I can officially say that im kinda sorta half-way there. As of June 29th, I have an A.A in graphic design and another A.A in interactive design!  Kinda psyched about that. Im gonna spend another quarter here and get another A.A in photography cause.. I can.

I graduated with honors and all sorts of other nerdery shit.... which I am really proud of.

After the graduation my little sister was telling my older sister about how I was a little embarrassed about taking this long to get this done. I know I shouldn't be, but .....l ets be honest, I'm an over achiever and I know it. I don't care.

Anyways the whole point of this is that my sisters reminded me that Im the FIRST person in our ENTIRE family thats graduated from any form of collegiate education. It shut me up.   It made me realize why I had signed up do do all the dinners and do the graduate walk.  I wasn't really doing it for myself, I was doing it for them. I mean it was suppose to be for my mom, but she decided to go to Mexico a month before and I really lagged at telling her the date, so im not mad...but doing all the shit that I normally find kinda dumb.. I did it for them, my sisters, my mom, my nephews.. I want my little sister to finish her education. I dont want my nephews to end up like hood rats.

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Blah Blah Blah... Summer goals...

blogging more.
getting crafty
Passing my statistics math class... cause seriously that shit sucks

shooting shooting shooting.

I shot this during Ink and Iron in early June. I dig the shit out of it. 

Hello 2013

Meh.. The older I get the less I keep detailed notes online.. Im not sure if its because I've almost-just-about given up on sharing so much information about myself with the general public .....but roll around one of these "Im-gonna-have-to-stay-up-all-night-anyways-so-I-might-as-well-yammer -away-to-myself "night and I eventually return to sharing useless information with non-existing crowds. This probably doesn't even make sense. Fuck it.

Anyways it's a new year.. here's to hoping that 2013 is a cluster-fuck..I spent 2012 mentally recovering from 2011. So it wasn't much of a year. Just forcing myself to focus on school.. which I did.... Like a fucking boss.... Surprisingly I continued to pass math.. and my grades were all around pretty fucking beautiful. Im proud.. and each time I think abut them I wish I could bitch-slap 17/18 year old me... for being such a fucking waste of space. I was cute.. but dumb as fuck. oh well.. Im sure I'll rant about this again at a later time.

Im letting Itunes just roll down based on when it was loaded.. I have a lot of fucking music.. and looking at Itunes.. I realize I've stopped listening to music... in general.... I spend the money, I load it, play half a song sometimes.. rarely actually playing the whole thing... but I dont actually LISTEN to the song.. when the fuck did this start happening?? Maybe this is why I sometimes feel like I've lost center. I made music such an integral part of my life and somewhere I stopped. Maybe I watch to much tv...its made a total soundtrack junkie though.. but it takes away from the music.. because I cant associate it with my own first thought on it.. I just think of how it fits with the movie instead, which is kinda lame. So maybe that my new years resolution? get back into the habit of listening to music?

.........Same with books. It took me two weeks to read The Lord of The Rings Trilogy the first time around.. Im pretty sure I would even be able to finish to finish The Fellowship.... my attention span is shit. I blame the internet. and T.V... and myself.

Wishing I was actually taking an English Class next quarter... but Im all done with that and I dont think I need the stress of making sure my grammar isn't fucking shit, but I miss talking about books, and the meaning of shit within the stories. Seriously, Dickerson had us contemplating the meaning of a characters name and how it suited his character within the story..had us read Vonnegut..another win.. plus he would crack some questionable jokes in class... And Jonah? Hoyle? I could never figure out what to call him.. meh I think I avoided it altogether and just said stupid shit in his class... i accidentally made a dick in a box joke in class.. didn't even realize it till months later.... i was talking about eyeballs..fail...That besides the point.. im getting sidetracked..... anyways he was kind of an awesome teacher too. Hoyle had us read "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time" which I really wish i could find.. cause I REALLy ended up liking that book.

The suns already up.. the sky is grey blue-ish.. Ive got another 12 hours to go before i can go to bed...Ive got so much i need to get done today.. so maybe this is a blessing in disguise? I dont believe in blessings... but its the closest thing to what i mean.

bleep. no one cares. im gonna go read the 500 days of summer script..

something pretty to look at so this isnt so fucking boring